Finally….five minutes to blog.  I have a showing for my house in less than 2 hours and a baby sound asleep in my arms, so I am typing at the goofiest angle, but if I do not seize the moment, then yet another day will pass without blogging.  And the sad thing is, I’m definitely not short on content…I am struggling to even pick a single topic right now and stay focused because there is so much I want to “discuss” with my readers, but time….time is my real enemy.  I cannot find enough hours in the day to fit in all that I want to do with my life.  I have so many well laid plans and schedules…..and then it all seems to go to Hell in a hand basket.  I get a fraction done that I set out to accomplish on any given day and then feel like I came up short as a mother, wife, daughter, friend, and we won’t even go there with the Me Time” thing!

I mean, how do people fit it all in?

The old adage is spot on….so much to do, and so little time to do it all.

Take my blog for instance.  It’s something I do for me.  I enjoy it.  It is the creative outlet that I need and crave.  The feedback has been resounding and I am making friends with women across the country that without this blog, I would have never gotten to “know”.  But, in order for me to keep up with it, I have to commit a chunk of every evening to it.  And since summer has started and we are doing more as a family….and doing it much later into the night, by the time I get  all the kids settled in for the night and I get my other daily “chores” taken care of, it’s midnight (if not later) and time for bed.  And aside from forgoing sleep at this point, I’m just struggling to get it all in.

I want to spend one on one time with my children…I want to do fun family activities that can only be squeezed into these brief months of summer…I want to write a book….I want to keep up with my exercising and weight loss efforts…. I want to spend time with friends I don’t get to see often enough…..I want, I want, I want!

Now I understand the theory….you have to take time for yourself if you want to be any good to anyone else….but that actually makes me laugh out loud.  The theory itself is great.  I get it.  But to actually do it….good luck!  Like I said, I would have to give up sleep at this point to manage everything.  And when I finally sit down at midnight and try to squeeze in my “Me Time”, well….I’m just spent and need to head to bed because I know I have two night time feedings yet ahead of me, morning will be here before I know it, and I’m back to running on the hamster wheel again…. (Yes, things are still going terribly bad with my daughter’s sleeping habits…you can read about that saga HERE).

So, I am going to do the best I can do.  I am going to “settle” more than I care to do.  I am going to make yet another commitment to myself to “take care of me” which I’m sure will last for at least 5 minutes.  And I’m going to give myself a break.  I’m going to cut myself some slack and acknowledge that running a home (that’s for sale), managing a family of 7, writing a blog, and being 0n a diet….all takes extreme amounts of time, energy, effort, and dedication and that sometimes I’m going to come up short.  I’m not always going to be the best mom or friend that I know I can and should be, but I’m doing the best I can and that will just have to be enough.