How can I have so much going on in my life right now and still be struggling to write a post? I feel like I have writer’s block or something.  I think it’s because all that we are experiencing right now… house issues, car issues, children issues, and family issues are all so personal.  I feel like if I blog about any of it, I’m betraying someone on some level.  I really just want to blurt out all that’s going on and all that I’m feeling and just get it off my chest.  That’s what would bring me some peace and help me sleep at night, but unfortunately, it’s not that simple.  When you are writing a blog that strangers across the country read…hey, no problem…they don’t know my family or me. Sharing personal details is easy when there is no face to go with it, but I also have family and close friends that read my blog.  Divulging “private” information to that sector is a bit more difficult.  I don’t want to offend anyone or step on anybody’s toes…nor do I want to create a panic so every time a friend logs into to see what’s going on in my world, they instantly think I’m a basket case and my world is falling apart. It is truly not that dramatic, but I have come to realize that sometimes when I am writing about my personal life, people take it more seriously than I meant it to come across.

All things considered, I’ve decided the last several weeks…as my life is full of changes…to just keep my mouth shut!  As much as it pains me to go through much of what we are experiencing alone, I know the backlash of putting it out there will be worse than just keeping quiet. So for now, I am going to struggle to make “small talk” about daily activities.  I am going to muster up the self-control to just button my lip and sit on my feelings…at least “publicly” for the sake of all who are involved.

So just an FYI…if my subject matter lacks over these next few weeks…you will try to understand, won’t you?  Try to realize that my personal life is in a bit of disorder right now, and that I am just clinging to the last days of summer or a trip to the zoo to blog about without getting overly personal…something I clearly struggle to do.

And to my wonderful friends and family who read this and will instantly think the worst, please don’t. There is no ensuing divorce….nobody is sick or dying from cancer…it’s all relatively positive changes…just VERY personal.

And when the dust settles around here…when we have some resolve to the major life changes we are going through…I will be back to putting it all out there.  I will be free to speak my mind and clue in my audience.

Until then….how about those Brewers??!!  ;o)